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Dumb
01:49
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I'm dumb
Cause the TV Screen
And I'm dumb cause new magazines
And an old Book that My Parents forced on me
That built the separation of whats right and being happy
If you ask me it's just getting old.
So paint me a picture of God
And I'll make it perfect if it's not.
I'll take the whole wide world
I'll take it back.
I'll paint the whole wide world
I'll paint it black.
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2. |
Stale Smoke
03:38
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Stale smoke
Collapses my lungs.
In my dirty room
I reflect.
"Where did i come".
I bet if I was more stable
He'd have more to say to me,
But your Dad is a Pastor and
I am the last thing He'd want for you.
I mean that in the nicest way.
Stale smoke collapses my lungs.
Nine months
Times up,
Yeah I'm fucked
I'm a dad now.
For all I know I just played my last show to like ten fucking people.
Cause your parents gave up on their dreams
And the kids took everything.
My hand reek of shit and I am constantly covered in it.
It's been three days I cant sleep.
Stale smoke collapses my lungs.
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3. |
Take Me Home
02:46
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Take me home
The Boys and Girls they fuck inside of muddy water.
They spread their seed and spread their love.
Their Brothers taught them how to swear and how to use "it".
Father taught Them not at all.
Dad I don't care I don't want to fix it.
I don't need your love anymore
And you can talk all you want I wont listen.
Mommys' gonna pick me up and
Take Me Home.
I see why You're not here right now.
Time wont let You remiss what you did
And I know it's been quiet around
I just enjoyed the silence after all of it.
You'd love nothing more, for me to hold you,
Say "I love you" and believe it's true.
Sometimes I feel sorry for You.
I don't care.
Old man, "wear my ass" out again.
You must be so alone.
Take me home.
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4. |
Servant
01:33
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I was a Servant and you were a King.
I don't deserve it, what you did to me.
Two for your kids
And one for your wife.
You don't realize just how big a part you played
In ruining my life.
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5. |
Old Man
03:01
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I was a Servant and you were a King.
I don't deserve it, what you did to me.
Two for your kids
And one for your wife.
You don't realize how just big a part you played
In ruining your life
Old man.
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6. |
Lost Boy
03:00
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Our love exists somewhere
Between the feeling and approval.
Hide me from your mother
And sisters and father.
Because they don't want to lose you to the lost.
They don't want to lose their little girl to the lost boy.
Would you lose it all for your God?
Would you lose it all for the feeling you get from you God?
My love grows inside your
Belly clawing at your ribs.
Waiting for his father to hold him.
Can I just hold him while he sleeps?
Can I just hold my little boy while he sleeps?
I don't want to lose him to your God.
I don't want to lose my little boy to your God.
No one loves you like I do.
No God loves you like I do.
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7. |
Ugly
03:42
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I've got some "friends" You can have them.
I grew up and they haven't so it's best to just throw them away.
I've got some girls you can have them.
I grew up and kicked the habit, It justified moving away.
I would hide indoors lonely, a victim of leeching friends.
(I'm not lonely) (I let you in)
I have slowly changed and feel safe in my new ugly skin.
(I love my new ugly skin)
Peel back my seams.
Empty vessel, Vacant skin.
Elect to feel so vain.
A big black hole to suck you in
Then pushes you away
To disbelief of what took place.
Imperfect and afraid.
You noticed me.
Thank God for you.
What would we do without your
Backhanded compliments.
Reminded I'm a novice
Incase I forget that you are perfect in every possible way
And when I'm gone they'll forget my
Name and they will call me by my own fathers name.
Drunken I will wreck myself Into everyone and
Peel back my scabs.
They were so close to
Healing now they're back
And I remember how I
Felt on that first day
When he was born and took away.
And I loved you still.
Like a child
(bleeding you)
Like a mother
(bleeding you dry)
It's God damn my own Fault that I am used to this.
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8. |
Home
04:10
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Someones been watching me for so long
And thought I'd fit so perfectly your grasp.
Yeah I fell asleep in the devils bed.
Such joyous dreams I had.
I lost all my innocence.
Someones been watching me for so long
and thought I'd fit so perfectly your grasp.
Ive been giving myself away
for so long.
Your mothers been pulling your strings for so long.
She tied her baby's tongue into knots, it's so wrong.
Ive been giving myself away
for so long.
Yet, I'll come crawling back
Fed on pages from your book
And trade my life filled with happiness
For a home that feels like hell.
I'll pray for me.
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9. |
Christian Girls
03:38
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You're so crippled by your Parents
And they wont let you go.
You try hard to please your Sisters
And they laugh when you fall down.
I knocked you up when we weren't sober
And they wretched at the seed we sowed.
My son gets bigger every time I see him.
I wish i could see him more.
How things could be so much different
If we had better jobs.
I said "I'd die before I ask for a favor"
And got caught with my hands out.
I know everything comes undone.
It wouldn't better if I said I love you.
It wouldn't be better if I said I love being
Stuck outside your circle.
You want me to be your family, but I don't put you first.
You tried cutting off my fingers, but you cant break my voice.
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10. |
Pathetic
03:03
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Having sex with You (Chain me to your bed)
Everyday last year (I wont wake up, I wont wake up anymore)
Made me feel (Chain me to your bed)
Cheap and disgusting. (I wont wake up, I wont wake up anymore)
Because I'm afraid of you
When I'm with you.
I beg and you like it.
You cut off your phone.
It's pathetic
When I'm with you.
I feel safe.
When I'm with you
I'm okay.
In your bed.
In your covers
I feel safe
When I shouldn't.
I begged and you liked it.
You cut off your phone.
It's pathetic when I'm with you.
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11. |
Broken
05:18
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I'm broken
I don't want to wake up.
I just want to lay here.
Lay in your bed.
Holding my hand
You make me feel like
Like a child again.
I don't need to fuck you
To know I love you.
Don't need to be scared
I know I've got
Atti.
We can hide here.
Hide in our home.
We'll probably die here,
But not alone.
In the bathroom
Washing our son.
Watching him grow.
I'm not alone anymore.
Atti,
In nine months my life will change.
It's such a big thought and my head is so little.
(Breath out)
To come and make life, it's so sentimental.
(Breath in)
To break the slats in your bed, they're so brittle
(Breath out)
And smell the sex in the air.
(Breath in)
After I cum I leave here yelling
"I think i'll be fine".
So I decide to leave
And showed up at your house and no one
No one even bothered
To pick up cause nobody answers they're phones anymore.
I stood in your drive way
Wasted and waiting.
No ones ever coming for me because
Best friends don't mean..
Best friends means.. (nothing to me)
I felt it once.
Your hand on mine.
You twisted my fingers and shattered my life.
And I ran away from my friends house and they laughed at me.
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